lisa hyesaidora

MOVED.

2010-02-06T23:18:00.003+08:00

PEOPLE ! I'VE MOVED. PLS LINK ME BACK AYE.
www.yourjuietwritingyoulies.onsugar.com

2010-02-05T10:31:00.002+08:00

FCUK! IM HATING WAT'S HAPPENING NOW. MASALAH MAKIN BERTAMBAH. BINGET SEYH ! ADULTS MAKES ME SICK SOMETIME. OH YAA, WORKING WAS LIKE HELL! THE PEOPLE WERE LIKE ANTS ! OMFG ! PENING AKU ! WAT ELSE TO BLOG? IM LIKE STUCK AT HOME RIGHT NOW. NOTHING TO DO. NK KUAR PON KENE TUNGGU SI DIE* BALEK. ABEH TU PON DIE KENE G TEMPAT LAEN DULU. BUSY NGN SOMEONE ELSE'S BROTHER! HAIYOOOO. WHEN WILL I HAVE THE TIME TO SPEND WITH MY OWN LOVE? NTAH LA PEOPLE. YA THINK IM TALKING CRAP? ME THINK SO TOO. :)
BOREDOM STRIKES ! X:
K LA ASS,
xoxo,lisa!

2010-02-02T23:50:00.003+08:00

no one cares.
no one watching.
no one listens.
what they only did was to leave me behind.
im sorry i will not stray back to you easily...

2010-01-31T21:58:00.001+08:00

WHAT'S MORE? MY LIFE IS ALREADY A ROLLER COASTER RIDE .

OH NO!

2010-01-31T21:05:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is e day. shit. & i've not even started on my research. i've yet need to make a decision.
i think. i know what i want. & i guess its really e best for me.
i will have a school transfer.
i will have my course changed.
& this is my choice.

giving up !

2010-01-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

im back.
but im disappointed.
so so so disappointed.
im sick.
im so so so sick.
hearing the news about my course.
its my last straw i guess.
no hope.
no nothing.
what should i do next?
cry?
cry?
or cry?
apply for another course?
huh!
tired.
so stupid of me.
:(

2010-01-28T23:32:00.001+08:00

goodbye...

2010-01-26T11:02:00.002+08:00

its hard for me to face the fact but i have too.
its hard for me to accept the fact but i have too.
all that i know im all alone now, and forever.
thank you for being there when i needed you.
thank you for once being a great friend.
thank you for once being a great boyfriend for me.
thank you for being my strength.
thank you for guiding me through all the hardship.
all i know, i will no longer hear anything from you.
all i know, i will not be hearing you calling my name again.
all i know, you'll be gone from me.
but y'know wat?
im getting used to being thrown away.
first my own flesh did that to me.
now you.
next who?
you'll be my first and my last.
that's all that matters.
once again, thank you for letting me to know you well.
farewell, my friend.

love!

2010-01-25T12:39:00.004+08:00

hello loooooooooooooove! im here to blog. tenga ade time nie so i post okay! currently my life is a hectic that i got to be involve with police work! HAH! wanna know why??? its a personal matter seriously. well, in singapore you just can't live with your own fcuking rules. if you do so, good luck in ending up in jail folks! all the best to YOU* in finding your fcuking way out from your so called 'happy life' . i can't wait for the results for my school application. waiting for their calls like hell! come on! ring the phone ass! now im learning to save more! yeaynesssssss! told mum im opening a new bank acct. she agreed. so yeah! can't wait. so NO MORE SPENDING TOO MUCH MONEY ON THINGS THAT I DON'T REALLY NEED. im cutting down on bags. im cutting down on clothes! SHOOOT! how to survive?? takpe nie pon psl nk save duet okay! im waiting for my lappy to get back home. da lame tak jumpe die tau. rinduuuuuu sangat!
hey now i realise how much....
i miss my school days.
i miss my bestfriends.
i miss my classmates.
i miss my maths teachers.
i miss disturbing the teachers.
i miss laughing out loud with my clans.
i miss studying.
i miss memorizing science topics.
i miss doing maths homework.
i miss english essays.
i miss having malay lesson at AVA room.
i miss wearing school uniform.
i miss waking up early in the morning.
i miss wearing white school shoes.
i miss wearing ankle socks.
i miss silence morning reading.
i miss dragging myself to school.
i miss getting morning speeches from my principal.
i miss getting scold as a class.
i miss getting home late from school.
i miss going for recess time.
i miss lining up for food.
i miss doing projects with friends in school.
i miss doing dnt.
i miss chit chatting in class with sheek!
i miss being the most kecoh with sheek.
i miss laughing in amaths class with mira n sheek.
i miss sleeping in class.
i miss getting in the bus 975.
GOSH, its like i miss my 10 years of education in formal school !
boohooo :(

FISHING!

2010-01-21T15:29:00.005+08:00

well people, like finally i update on the day i spent time under the scorching sun!
that's why im dark! hahahaha! my bet! this girl can't stand out from trouble. trouble is the new me yeah! im kinda free now so i update quickly on the day i went fishing with taz n his clan. SEMUE TAKOT DGN ANJING! dog btol ! nyaha!
btw, guard dogs are super fierce. no kidding!
i'll update more aye!
bye superstars!

will somebody care?

2010-01-18T09:51:00.003+08:00

dear diary....
sorry for not updating frequently. i've decided to abandon my blog since im too busy withy career. HAHA! :p actually my life is like e best of all tiums gonna be loads and tons of fun man! i've already applied for my course. so gonna be soon that im gonna start schooling days like an adult :) LOL! im bored now. im stuck at home for two days! OMFG! nk kuar pon dgn sape la seyh! i've recently changed my blogskin. boring la dgn yg lame punye... simple punye pon jadi laaa.... my BIG HP is freaking sort! tak leh charge pulak. kepala budak betol ! da okay2 leh pki ni buat hal lagi.. haiyo! btw, for girls who is going after my guy, sorry, he's mine so tau la malu siket okay!
i've been having bad dreams.. nk tau mimpi ape? selalu nye mimpi happens the opposite way in the real world? ehs? seriously? taz have been a really super great BBFF. ( BEST BOYFRIEND, FRIEND FOREVER) giving me encouragement. helping me to find e perfect handbags for me. telliing me i look fine with my new hairstyle. OMG! i recently cut my hair shorter. :D we foght we cry but we know we love one another & we still need each other. WORK have been the boring thing ever now! ramai org seyh yg dtg shopping. tau la da nk cny tapi bleh tak payah nk kiasu sgt pe beli smpi 2, 3 trolley full of goods! MAMPOS! nie org kaya mkn 7 keturunan pon tk abes seyh! hahahahahahhaha! k lar if anything i'll update sooon.
taz, i hope you're reading this! miss you, honey!

HELLAVU.

2010-01-15T22:02:00.002+08:00

hello people.
i will be back a little while okay!
currently busy with school application + work !
xoxo, lisa!

love are meant for eternity

2010-01-06T22:02:00.002+08:00

HELLO ! HELLO ! HELLO! HELLO KEPADA SEMUA!
have you guys checked out e newspaper today??????? do you know about the molesting thingy??? kesian seyh pompan tuu... but sape yg suroh die carik penyakit high2 abeh pki mcm tuu kat tempat rmi org... kan sendiri yg susah.. heran laa dgn manusia nie..
THIS MORNING!
i went to work. as usual IM LATE! oh gosh! slalu seyh dtg lmbt.. mati aku! :p
then naseb poh lan tk memekak. hehe. thenn work as usual... BORING, maybe. tak rmi org. maybe kalau da nk chinese new year baru ramai org agaaknye. actually i talked a lot today. keje ashek nk membebel ngn org. hehe. then after work i met taz gmok, my one&only gmok! ah nk tau cite! mase kt dlm bus kan, ade org nie agaknye die saket mental laa... tak baekkan nk panggil die org G*. abeh die dudok kat busnye 4 seater tu. then bile die bngn ade bekas CHOCOLATE2 KAT KERUSI TUUU...! OMG! agaknye tuu T* die agaknye... e whole bus bau seyh.. nk uat mcm mane.. tahan je la dgn bau die. naseb i was seating kt blkg skali so not bad laa bau die. tk bau sgt sebab jaoh. then i waited for taz ard 30 mins. then we had our late late late lunch! naseb i leh tahan lapa tau. kalau tak i da gigit u! :p
then we walked2 then taz fed up seyh kalau tman me go guardian. u nie, i kan pompan. paham2 je la taz. nk beli brg make up. nk beli facial wash. nk choose mcm2 brg.. hehehehehe. then we thought nk beli kinder bueno skali lame sgt nk kene tunggu die carik bar code die... so tak jadi. too bad! then we lpak kat blkg mrt situu. then we planned about M*
taz tak sabar2 nk ambek license! WHATEVER LA EH U! hehehe. jgn nk action tau!
then here i am. at home. nth to do. so i blogged.
& next up? ntah laa! yeay! bsok tk keje! boleh RELAXXXX!
ps: i need someone to jual my bags & clothings. who can help me???
k lar till here then. tak tau apee nk ckp lagi.
btw, my hp bill melambong sbb pki GEE! thnks ah eh!
bye.

xoxo, lisa!

i miss you, honey!

2010-01-03T14:39:00.002+08:00

hey y'all. my 2010 start with a super bad incident. y'know wat?
i hate my life. i hate the person who really ruins it. like wat kind of person he is who always maki2 org pompan sundal sume? heh kau bleh jalan ah! laki mcm kau tak payah nk respect ah!
you don't even respect woman!
kan aku da marah. abeh pompan mane yg suke kalau kene maki sial, sundal ? sape suke?
just imagine if your M get that from your F, can you accept it?
ntah la manusia nie, tak mcm manusia. takde perasaan langsung.
i just don't know where is the justice actually. dunie ni ibaratkan takde keadilan. die boleh buat sesuka hati die tapi takde sesiapa yg boleh halang die. klaka seyh!
no one wants their life to end up like me. da tentu seyh. but from the support that i got im able to stand strong. i've even asked my mum whether i can have my name changed. but name bpk mesti nk ade. takpe. kt batu nisan, IC ngan BIRTH CERTIFICATE jek ade name bapak but not kat akhirat. ok la tuu. skrg name die jek ade tapi takde gunenye kan. so if you think you have a bad life, pikir la eh. at least your life is not seterok aku nye life. da la... mls la nk pikir psl nie.
yesterday taz terpaksa leave me because he ws going to johore.
awwww, how sad.... taz, i wish you were there with me... he wished for that too.
till here, not in e mood to update long long.
i need a peace of mind, can't i just have that?

new year, yet old stories.

2009-12-31T23:16:00.002+08:00

hey buddy! boring sey new year eve tapi nothing special. tk mcm couple laen.. drg sume g tengok bunga api together2 tapi aku nie kat ruma teperap srg2... boring sey... semue org ade plan masing2... haiz... ape laa naseb aku nie.... :(

pssst: tadi ptg i met mira!!! sheek jgn jealous tau !

iHEART u !

2009-12-30T21:19:00.003+08:00

even this can't fully describe how much i love you...

my one&only, taz aka SEZAIRI !

2009-12-29T23:22:00.003+08:00

hello people! here's my second post of the day i guess. oh gosh! susah seyh nk tido. tak ngantok lagi...plus! i met up with mr TAZ. miss him so much laaa! ntah eh da jumpe pon maseh rindu, knape ehs? ntah la nak! haha. on the way nk jumpe pon nk gado. pls la u. jgn nk gadoh2 ngn i lagi bleh tak? tak suke tau i.. then, its okay! :) back to my story.......
lpas jumpe taz, we had our dinner at mac. dudok kat situ mcm2 org ite nampak.. ade nyonya2 nie pki glamour seyh. ni mesti baru balek dari karaoke contest! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA! then taz told me something...... DIE KATE KAN, RAMAI ORG KAT TMPT KEJE CKP MUKE DIE SEBIJI MCM SEZAIRI! HAHAHAHAHAHAH! TAK BOLEH ANGKAT BTOL LA U NIE! THEN ADE JGAK YG SANGGOP KLUAR DARI KERETE DRG ABEH PEGI KAT TAZ ABEH CKP MUKE DIE MCM SEZAIRI !!! jeng..jeng...jeng... chey.... da popular la org tuu.... hehehehe. then we talked about taufik batisah. ah! ADE ORG TU JEALOUS WHEN I SAID I LIKE TAUFIK! hahahaha! mmg pe taufik cute and handsome! & taz also told me something! hehehe. so u, kalau every friday i ilang, u tau la kan nk carik i kat mane. :p
then we headed to NTUC nk beli barang. the he said he saw SOMEONE! oh pls la u, its kisah lame seyh. haiyooooooooooooooooooooo! the best part was bile nk belil obat batok taz, cute la u! tau takot i mara u kalau amek honey lemon. cpat2 u amek classic!
& i bought myself mentos cola?! gerek pe da ade cola punye flavour. now, i guess taz pon da tido. & im going off now to bed. bsok nk keje. k la people. see you soon!
btw, new year nk pegi mane eh? semue org da ade plan masing-masing.
peace out ^^v

MAKE UPS & DO-OVER !

2009-12-29T11:57:00.003+08:00

M.I.A ? not for long now!

2009-12-28T16:55:00.003+08:00

helloooooooooooooooooooo blog! i miss you v v much! i miss noting down my feelings. i miss telling y'all what's been happening in my life. i miss my gf. i miss MY OLD GOOD,NICE AND SWEET-LOVING BOYFRIEND. as y'know people change right... haiz... nevertheless, now im at library with sis.and later on.... im getting my own mini notebook okay! YEAYNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! so after getting one, i'll update more regularly okay people?????! right now, i feel like i am someone who is not important to anybody. even the person that i love most is drifting away from me. why? me too have no idea. what i know he's always too busy with his stuff. i just wished one day, just one day he will realise how important i am to his life. i wish he will have the time to read this post, IF HE HAS THE TIME.
recently, i've been a bad bad bad bad girl. i've been skipping work! OMFG! why? tooooooo lazy. :p no mood to work laaaa... &&&& do you watched singapore idol yesterday? OH MY GOD, TAUFIK WAS HOT MAN! haha! gotcha! now i realise how hot he is. last time i was just a minor fan of him. not that huge. but now, ????????? haha! da agak daa mesti sezairi menang punye. congrates to him! btw, i heard sylvia was a PR? she was from THE PHILLIPHINES? am i right? she was not that bad too. ntah la.. org2 nie yg vote kan. k lar gtg. xoxo,lisa!

GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE!

2009-12-20T09:54:00.000+08:00

good morning! i swear today i had a great great great great great great great great great great morning ! why? because....... the first person that i saw this morning was taz... hehe. mesti la happy... he woke me up this morning abeh he tickle my toes la tarik selimut org just to wake me up... hehe. org tenga shoik2 mimpi.. but, to bad taz's supposed to work today.. haiz... how i wish we can spend more times like this... fyi, taz is a BIG BIG BIG SUPER BIG BULLY AT HOME! tak abes2 seyh die kacau adk die. haiyo.. u nie... naughty tau... sorry guys if i can't reply ur tags. just text me at my new no okays! n as u guys can see i've just change my blogskin because the last skin was a disaster! so the first thing i did in the morning was to drag myself to change the blogskin. now that it is done, how was it? okay tak..? lets talk about work. shoooot! the new place at century square was a mess. the tearoom was like a storeroom. n people have been asking wats e different between this ntuc and the other ntuc? i was like "err.... " haha. mesti la ade beza die kan! bodo biskot la customer nie! nevertheless, i miss my workplace... its better... hehehehehe ;p im going home today! yeay can't wait to meet my "ank angkat" haha. joking onie laaaa hor. & taz, thnks for the days that ur here for me! i love you more than what u ever knew... tak semestinye setiap kali i mara i benci u.. tak la taz. mane i benci babat kesayangan i... hehe. mwaaaaaah! k lar i gtg. tc ass"es". see you soon!

whats more fun than this?

2009-12-20T00:20:00.000+08:00

hey readers! before im going for my long night sleep, im going to update a short post. ooooh! i miss postings! i hope i can post more updates soon! im currently spending 2 nights at taz's crib. i've just got back from malacca! what a day! it was fun ! & e tour guide was funny n most important of all, the food was AWESOME!! but i miss mama! well, thats me! i got myself things that i've been craving for. n to taz, SHOIK PE KENTOTKAN ORG BNYK KALI? hehe (: k lar. see you soon! xoxo, lisa!

THE TRUCK.

2009-12-03T23:21:00.004+08:00

this is the truck video.
lampu2 tu semue taz yg buat...
coool kaaaan?
die mmg gitu.
kalau pocket bike die, lampu2 nie sume keje die la.
pki konci tau kalau nk on lampu2 die.
style kan?
i know.
bye!

TIME IS GOING FAST !

2009-12-03T22:12:00.004+08:00

time is going really fast. seriously.
pejam celik, pejam celik da nk 2010 ! OMFG!
then i'll be schooling.
then it will soon be my second year. gosh!
i guess sooner or later i'll have to give up my job cause im going to study.
that includes me having a stable family income.
taz have been saying that he wants to quit his job. well, if you think thats e best for you then go ahead okay! i'll always be right behind you to support you!
&&&&&&&& he keep saying "LAGI 5 BULAN JE DA BOLEH AMBEK LESEN!"
oh shut up la taz gemok!
action! tak suke seyh dgn org action mcm u!
kalau da ade motor nanti, jgn lupe plak ngn i okay! ^^v
today.
sucks? okay? ntahlaa.
same jek.
morning i went to work.
e funny part at work was everybody was stuck at the office because they can't sign off from the thumbprint machine that they recently changed. so everyone had problem signing off.
then dtg POH LAN dtg dari blkg & jitak my kepale! suke hati mak bapak die punye ank jek!
haha! & its all because of my KEBODOHAN pegi ikot ape yg nyonya2 laen buat smpi nk sign out pon tak leh! padahal boleh just letak jari jek. i went to key in my pin la blablabla....
SELENGE KAN? i know.
then after work taz fetched me.
then we had our lunch.
CURRY CHICKEN NOODLES YUM YUM!
sluuuuuuuuuuuuuuurp!
then we lpak. then vroooooooooooooooooooom HOME!
actually i wanna upload a truck video that taz buat lighting die.
BUT!
i don't have e video!
taz! cpat antar video die la gemok!!!
HELP! HELP! HELP!
for this few days i've been bullied by bdk gemok nie!
^^v
k lar. smpai sini sahaje criter kite pade hari nie okay!
kawan-kawan jgn lupe tau dtg lagi ke blog nie utk bace kisah seterusnye!
bye-bye kawan-kawan!

PICTURES ATTACK, the one which i told you about (:

2009-12-01T22:26:00.003+08:00

THIS IS WHAT SISTERS WILL DO WHEN THEY ARE BORED.
we just had nothing else to do.
so we do our make up, clean up our closet & we go CLICK! CLICK! CLICK!
awesome time ! loveeeee it soooooooo much!

you really make my day (:

2009-12-01T21:47:00.003+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh! im back from work!
tired but awesome!!!!! ^^
morning i went to work like SOTONG!
muke ngntok seyh. haiz...................... i had a late night sleep laa thats why...
taz fetched me from work cause die da habes skola ! HOW GREAT IS THAT ????
then we went to BUGIS.
actually plan nye tak jadi tau nk g bugis sbb ade org tuu la kan ckp die pki tk glamour thats why tak leh g bugis... ape la u... u pki ape pon cute pee.. hehe ^^v
but then taz mcm kesiankan me so we went to bugis to buy a new BAG!
OMFG! OMFG! OMFG! OMFG!
another bag????????????????????????????????????????????
i know! tangn gatal. mesti nk beli bag. hehe. im so addicted to bags!
then after that we took this bus 961 from bugis to woodland.
bile time nk naek bus org semue tolak2 mcm takot na bus tuu lari...
haiyooo... then taz kacau2 org block2 org punye way. jahat ehs u!
the funny part was we both fell asleep in the bus.
awwwwwwww, its nice to sleep on your shoulder y'know!
back to the story,
abeh bkn tau nk bngn tau bile da smpi woodlands. HAHAHAHAHAH!
lagi boleh sedap tido kat bus tuu naseb baek taz sada. klaka seyh XD
then we went to jln2 skejap kat causeway point.
taz tak habes2 nk tengok jam kesayangan die yg die nk beli...
then we lpak skejap, then off to home!

there's plenty of events coming up!
we planned to go fishing.
MALACCA TRIP! yuhooooooooooo!
&&& many many more i guess...
next week i'll start to work full OMG! mcm mane laa nk handle nanti..
tapi, at least ade taz keje skali... yeay me! :D
k lar, i'll stop here.
btw,
to taz, i wish you all the best for your exam bsok tau. u uat exam u betol2 jgn nk guess guess tau. i nk u dpt first in class if you can okay! i know you can. kan? kan? kan?
u, i nk blg u... kalau i slalu kasar ngn u pon tk bermaksod i tk syg u...
i syg u very much tau....
i'll try to be a better GIRLFRIEND okay?!
i promise.
with love, lisa!

I WANT THIS ASAP ! ^^v

2009-11-30T11:56:00.003+08:00

OMG! i can't wait to have this !!!
today im going out to survey for this precious notebook!
plssssssssssssssssssss i want it asap !!!!!!
taz have returned from johore after his long long holiday with his family and his 'precious' friend.
oh what a luck.
i miss him for some reason. and for some reason i don't.
haha! how is that? i dunno!
i hope you are reading this!
don't blame me, blame your carelessness okay!
im getting ready now!
with love, lisa!

xoxo, PHOTOSHOOT was AWESOME !

2009-11-29T19:39:00.003+08:00

believe or not????! the boredom at home made me feel stuck!
so sis and i had an idea!
we had HOME PHOTOSHOOT !
we had more than 200 shots taken! OMFG !
all shots will be uploaded to multiply i guess cause im not e one doing it.
its my sis idea & work!
so, do take a look y'all !

xoxo, lisa!

2009-11-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

CRAWL by chris brown

Everybody sees it’s you.
I’m the one that lost the view.
Everybody says we’re through.
I hope you haven’t said it too.

So where do we go from here,
With all this fear in our eyes?
And, where can love take us now?
We’ve been so far down.
We can still touch the sky.

If we crawl
‘til we can walk again
Then we’ll run
Until we’re strong enough to jump.
Then we’ll fly
Until there is no end.
So let’s crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love.
Yeah, back to love, yeah.

Why did I change the pace?
Hearts were never meant to race.
Always felt the need for space.
And now I can’t reach your face.

So where are you standing now?
Are you in the crowd of my faults?
Love, can’t you see my hand?
I need one more chance.
[ Chris Brown Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
We can still have it all.

So we’ll crawl
‘til we can walk again.
Then we’ll run
Until we’re strong enough to jump.
Then we’ll fly
Until there is no end
So let’s crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love.
Yeah, back to love, yeah.

Everybody sees it’s you.
Well I never wanna lose that view.

So we’ll crawl
‘til we can walk again.
Then we’ll run
Until we’re strong enough to jump.
Then we’ll fly
Until there is no end.
So let’s crawl, crawl, crawl.

So we’ll crawl
‘til we can walk again.
Then we’ll run
Until we’re strong enough to jump.
Then we’ll fly
Until there is no end.
So let’s crawl, let’s crawl, let’s crawl
Back to love.

WARNING! harsh post coming up :p

2009-11-28T23:40:00.004+08:00

i've been eating too much lately i guess. so i had a bad bad bad bad bad tummy ache in the morning which require me to wake up at 3 am to _____* ! FCUK! so in the morning i can't go to work ! &&&& thnks ro nat for pengkan criter okay!!!!! :D
y'know wat? if i were to say that im sick THERE IS NO WAY THAT 'SHE' IS GOING TO BELIEVE ME! i swear about that! so after texting nat, i went to sleep again. banyak kali seyh aku tido nari ! hahahahahhahaha! then lpas da mkn 'poh chai' , baru okaay!
at noon, i received a miss call from my workplace i guess.
who cares!
IF THEY DON'T BELIEVE THE WORKERS THAT WE ARE SICK, LET IT BE.
I DON'T FCUKING CARE ABOUT YOU & YOU SITUATION OKAY!
YOU ALWAYS WANT PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND YOU BUT YOU YOURSELF NEVER UNDERSTAND ME AND OTHERS! WHAT YOU DO AT WORK IS ONLY TO SCOLD THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE LOWER STANDARD THAN YOU! I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU LA OKAY! I WORK FOR NTUC NOT I WORK FOR YOU! FREAKING ASSHOLE! GO AND GET A LIFE LAA! IF YOU HAVE NOTHING TO DO, GO ONE CORNER AND DIG YOUR NOSE OR SOMETHING! DON'T VENGE YOUR ANGER AT ME LA ASSHOLE!
KAU PIKIR PANGKAT KAO BESAR ABEH KO NK BESAR KEPALE AH???!
EEH AKU TAK HERAN LA WOI! AKU TAU AKU KEJE, AKU DPT GAJI. KO NK MARA AKU TU KAO PUNYE PASAL! BODOH PUNYE ORG! KAO TUU STKT PR JE LA JGN NK STEP MCM KAO ORG SINI LA BABI !
if you guys wanna work at my place,
be prepared to face this PIG at work !
don't care about her, if she say anything just fcuking heck care!
stuuupid bastard !
sorry for this HARSH post.
im just freaking mad with my chief cashier at work for being so ridiculous.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA !

2009-11-27T21:53:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA !
to all muslims...........................
i spent the whole day at home ! OMG!!! so boringggggggggg !
but shoik jgak ahs... sleep the whole day only ! HAHA!
im missing someone *
but the way he treated me, hmm... let me think twice about it.
it hurt me a lot... its like you don't care about me...
ntah laa..... i pon tak tau...
TOMORROW:
im working !!!!! hooooray! at least ade something to do...
haha! im working to collect duet kawin!
hahahahahaha!
tak lar... keje just to fill up my time laa.
k lar.
till here.
NOT IN DA MOOD TO UPDATE LONG LONG *
^^v

GET WELL SOON, HONEY!

2009-11-25T21:19:00.003+08:00

argggggggggggh ! Taz is leaving for johore tomorrow !!!!!
how sad.... me alone.... here... without you....... tsk... tsk... tsk...
nevertheless, cpat baek tau... kesian bdk nk pegi holiday demam !!!! huahuahuahua XD
PADAN MUKE U !!! :p
today's work is not so fcuked up.
catherine tried to act fierce nk step marah2. but when i stared at her back, die step bobal baek... tau takot.... hehehehehehe....
wats making my day better is meeting YOU !!!!!! thnks taz! :D
next month im working almost like a FULL TIME worker.
most of my days will be devoted to work, work & MORE WORK !
im not a workaholic ehs.
im just bored at home. (:
ohs ya, SHEEK & MIRA! im free on next friday! nk jumpeeeee ???????????
k lar guys. tc.
xoxo,lisa!

LOVE BIRDS DO DIE.

2009-11-23T19:05:00.004+08:00

its sad to know that the person who first said that he loves you,
said he regret having you the very next day...

there is barely any peace in this world, FUCK !

2009-11-22T21:06:00.006+08:00

everything happen for a reason right?
for me, it happen because of thouands of reasons.
i don't know when i can live happily ever after.
my story is like not a cinderella story.
its like im facing a downfall evreytime i try to be happy.
its like i can't even be happy for a moment & i don't even know why.
there's too much things on my head.
i felt so pressured. too pressured i guess.
i think about my siblings. my 'family'. & even you.
even if i think that you're the one who can make me happy, i think im wrong.
its just getting from bad to worst.
its either me or you who changed. idk.
its wrong for me to accuse you of everything that happened.
& its also not right to blame it all on me.
i guess i have to give way to you.
im so sick & tired of all the fights.
lets just have it the way you want it okay.
i guess i'll be fine....
with love, lisa!

a new personal diary i guess ?

2009-11-20T20:12:00.004+08:00

i've been asking myself whether i should open up another personal diary online....
should i or should i not ????????
hmmm... let me take some time to analysis whether i need 1 or not.
gosh, im working tomorrow & its a SATURDAY !
mesti kecoh rabaks punyeeee! takpe. at least leh tengok muke taz bile keje. so tak la rase boring sangat. hehehehehehehe. leh flirt2 ngn taz. hahahaha! TIME KEJE PON ADE MASE NK FLIRT EHS ?! ehs, mestilaaaaaa.... they call us THE TWIN kat tmpt keje tau !
they said we look alike. some even thought taz is my BIG BRO ?! oh, come on!
next month im so going to work on weekdays only! BEST PEER?
yaaaaaaaaaaaap! yahooooooooooooooooooooo!
sape yg tak suke seyh? mesti org suke keje weekdays, 10am-5pm !
weekends can relax.... kan best gituuuu kan? kan? kan?
my bro have been sleeping over at our house for like a week. gerek ader die. naseb die ader. maen monopoly laa... taiti laaa.... tapi tak gune tau maen monopoly dgn die... die mesti mng! hahaha! he make me go BANKRUPT! shoooooooot you!
ala, next week die da balek. boring balek laa nampaknye.... ):

i've watch AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL cycle 13.
BEST PER NICOLE MENANG!

gorgeous! flawless NICOLE! congrats !
go & check out her photos, so super lawa ....
if i have it, i'll post it aye!
love, lisa !

RAIN ! RAIN ! COME AGAIN ANOTHER DAY !

2009-11-20T19:55:00.002+08:00

im trying my best to put all the sad2 things behind okay ! come on fik! i know you are 1 strong girl ! i can't let this shit be an obstruction to my life right? come on!
im telling this to myself over & over & over again.
okay.
yesterday i went to work. luckily im not late for morning briefing! YEAY NESS! but towards the last part hujan lebat i guess. setiap staff yg masok office mesti basah! hahahahaha! ooohh, kesian drg. ish.. ish.... ish.... then i found out that........ TAZ IS PICKING ME UP FROM WORK!
its like a suddenly thing but nevertheless, who cares because HE'S SWEEEEEEEEEEEET!
i love you la taz!!!!! mwaaaaaaaaaaaah!
this few days, we have been trying to catch up a lot. & we also spent quite some time together.
&&&&&&&& I LIKE IT !
its great to feel so close when we are far apart. get it?

hey, its not so bad having a partner who stays far away from you.
its all about sacrificing for one another.
here's the thing.
if someone really cares and love you, they are willing to do anything for you.
like he/she will try to find some time to meet eventhough their schedule is tight.
this far away or staying from one end to another is not a reason for you to break u & find someone staying nearer to your house. you'll never know wat will happen some day. maybe you will also shift to another place far away. its all the matter of trust.
If you have no trust on one another, things won't work out.
im saying this because im myself is going through this right now.
actually i can say that i've gone through a lot already.
i can't think that im going through the worst because i know there are others who also going through tougher life than mine.
just think as this,
maybe one day, we'll be closer than this.
who knows. miracles do happen.
im grateful to all the people who have been with me all this time.
i really apprieciate it, my friends , my family & to you my love.
love, LISA !

a new world for me & for all

2009-11-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

kite sebagai seorang manusia hanya mampu untuk redha dgn segale ape yg terjadi. jadi hanya itu sahaje yg fika & keluarga mampu buat dgn pemergian seorang kanak-kanak kecil yg dahulu rapat bersama kami. alasan pemergiannye? tidak sesiape yg ketahui. semua ni berlaku dgn tibe-tibe. tida sesiapa tahu alasannye. hanya allah sahaje yg tahu. rumah ini semakin sepi tetapi ape yg berlaku haruslah diterime dg ikhlas, begitu juga dgn kami.
well people on the other side, hope you are happy, assholes!
i've been working to fill up my emptiness lately. luckily, kat rumah ade HAFIZ! yeaynesssss! so tak boring sgt. hehe XD kecooh2 jgak dgn die. haha! guess wat?! i've been liking work now. ntah ehs mcm feeling best die dtg. waaa, skrg da pandai gossip kat tmpt keje nie. haha. then kalau customer buat prangai, just smile. nanti drg fed up sendiri. haha! kalau drg nk marah kite drg takde alasan yg kuat pe. kite tak kurang ajar pe. kite cume diam and senyom! haha!
PADAN MUKE KORANG!
huahuahuahuahuahua!

well, people's blog are full with spammers nowadays!
TO ALL SPAMMERS IN THIS WHOLE UNIVERSE,
GET A LIFE, ASSHOLES! LOW IQ ! KALAU TAKDE KEJE SGT PERGI CARIK KEJE. KAT LUAR TU BNYK KEJE. OH YA, LUPE PLAK. AGAKNYE KRG BARU KENE RETRENCHED KAN SBB TU TAKDE KEJE KORANG SPAM BLOG ORG. HAHA! BRAPE EHS GAJI KORANG SPAM BLOG ORG? NK TAU JGAK SEYH. HAHA!
ACTUALLY ORG-ORG NIE, JEALOUS DGN ORG YG ADE BLOG. AGAKNYE SI SPAMMERS NIE TAKDE BLOG YG LAWA. ABEH DIE TENGOK ORG LAEN NYE BLOG LAGI LAWA DARIPADE DIE PUNYE THATS WHY DIE SPAM ORG LAEN NYE BLOG. KAN? KAN? KAN?
JUST SAY SO LA SPAMMERS! WEML*!
@#$%^**(&^^%%$#@@!@!!!!!##%&^%$#@$%^&^%$# !!!!
OKAY FIKA MEREPEK!
cut the crap! im bored laaaa! ni pon baru balek keje nothing to do.

oh yaaaa! nk tau something? yesterday i tried this HAIR TREATMENT.
its called the HOMEMADE PROTEIN HAIR TREATMENT.

all you need:
-MAYONNAISE
-OLIVE OIL
-2 EGG YOLK

how to do it?
- simply add 2 full spoon of the mayonnaise (it all depend on the hair length, if you hair is longer you may need more than 2 spoon)
-add the egg yolk then mix it well.
-lastly add the olive oil. not too much. just 3 spoonful.
- mix all the ingredient well.
- then just put in on your hair like hair dye.
- wait for it for like half an hour.
-wash it off with your normal shampoo.
-you may need to wash your hair more than twice! haha!
-try it once a month, it will make you hair shiny & smooth!

WARNING!
ITS MAY SMELLS BAD AND IT MAY MAKE YOU WANNA PUKE. (:
HAPPY TRYING!

can i just remain silent, the answer is DAMN NO!

2009-11-14T22:31:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAIFULRIDHWAN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
MWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH !
im freaking TIRED! gosh, ppl were like ants at e NTUC! mcm semot kecik2 rmi2 jalan kat ntuc. I SO HATE SATURDAYS! when can i ever have my saturday a happening one???? today i finished work early so i waited for taz then we went to cck to meet mummy. i ate 10 sushi! gelojoh? i know :) haha! then we went back hoome! they actually went to search for my adek sedare birthday gift tomorrow im not working! YAHOOOOOOOOOO! i hate work now! why? sbb drg suroh kite pki christmas hat nie! BUROK!!!! hahahaha XD
then people keep saying "little elf working at ntuc"
WTF laaa!
k laaa. i wanna rest! oh ya, before that, i wanna ask. can you all read my blog?
because some say drg tak leh bace blog. like got prob? if can use MOZILLA FIREFOX okay!
tc.
& for YOU* - you are the most suckiest person i've ever known!

why must they be inhuman?

2009-11-13T20:56:00.004+08:00

this pics were taken at ICA BUILDING. gamba ni da lame kite ambek bile we went jalan2 from BUGIS TO KALLANG! hahahahahahaha! crazy kan? i know (:
so kalau korang nk seludop barang dari johore, mane korang nk ltak??? hmmm.... hehe.
currently, im back from meeting taz.
its my off day so i decided to meet taz up at his school. then we went to lpak at his friend's house at woodlands. we played POKER, TAITI..... haha! i brought the boys down! ape la korang, dgn pompan pon leh kalah.. ish... ish... ish...
then we left for ADMIRALTY to buy my new bag! (:
OMG! brape bnyk bag aku ade????? BELAMBAK OKAY !
taz, pls help me! jgn kasi i beli bag lagii okay!
then after that we went back to woodlands to have our dinner then we lpak again.
then taz said he wanted to be home by 7 because die nk tngok muke AMANDA BYNES die kat okto! whatever la eh u! BOOOOOO!
nk balek, punye laa ramai org line up nk naek 168! terpaksa wait for the next next bus to balek. tu yg buat lmbat tuu... ohh ya! sempat tadi belikan birthday present to my adk sedare yg cute!!!
awwwwwwwwww, he's only ONE! :D
so cute la bdk kecik nie !
what a rainy day! i guess its because people in this house is feeling really down by whats currently happening to my family. FCUK! i can say that once again. FCUK!

okay. im angry + sedih... BUT WHAT CAN I DOOO????? NOTHING!
haiz... taz, g tuka la pki mozilla firefox. ashek complain jek tak leh bace blog!
ala.... bsok keje! eh! tak boleh gituu tau.
kan nk carik duet sbb december im going on a short holiday trip y'know!
okay la. till here then.
stay tune for more updates!
with love, lisa!
smooches for everyone!
MWAAAAAAAAAAAAAH !

AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL

2009-11-11T20:41:00.002+08:00

gosh! its killing me ! AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL !
TYRA BANKS IS SO SUPER GORGEOUS!
currently im waiting for the next episode for cycle 13 ! OMG!
cpat laaaa. CEPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!

y'know wat?!
i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz !
i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz !
i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz !
i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz !
i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz !
i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz !
i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz !
i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz ! i miss taz !

luckily, bsok we going to watch movie! yeaynessss! :)
TRIPLE DATE y'know! sweeet! (:

sedarlah sebelum terlambat.

2009-11-10T09:53:00.002+08:00

sorry for missing for soo long.
i've not been feeling well lately.
i've been pushing myself too hard.

things are goin from bad to worse just because people from the other side are playing with our butts. well, god is the greatest. whatever you did, we may not know but ALLAH knows.

so, if you feel BIG & VICTORIOUS, cut it out.
you are just the biggest loser who doesn't have any other way but to use BLACK MAGIC.
OMG! how i know? ehs. everybody knows what you have been keeping.

everybody realises that you have changed.

di dunie nie terdapat bnyk ilmu yg dapat menyesatkan seseorang manusia. Manusia selalu dibutakan dgn ilmu tersebut utk mereka dapatkan segala harta dan juga ia dapat mempengaruhi seseorang laen ke dunie yg laen. dengan itu seseorang itu akn tidak sedar apa yg dilakukannya. Manusia yg sesat akan sering melihat dirinya sebagai seorang yg BENAR & BERKUASA.

kadang kala mereka akn mengatakna kepada org laen bahawa mereka mengetahui apa yg orang laen buat semasa tempoh hidup mereka. mereka akn mengatakan bahawa mereka waras tetapi selaen itu apa yg mereka ingat ialah utk membalas dendam.
dendam ini membara di dalam diri mereka. dendam ini boleh membuat mereka melakukan satu pekerjaan dgn tidak memikir dahulu. mereka akn menggunakan ilmu yg sesat itu utk membalas dendam mereka.
kepergiaan seseorang dari hidup ku telah membuat ku sedar. hanya manusia yg kejam akn berbuat sedemikian. apa yg menyedihkan lagi, die tidak mementingkan masa hadapan seseorang itu. apa yg ditinggalkan adalah kenangan.
setiap manusia akn membuat kesilapan. aku juga begitu. namun, aku tidak menggunakan sembarang cara yg salah utk mendapatkan apa yg aku mahukan. aku tidak tahu harus membuat apa lagi. apa yg aku hanya mampu utk buat ialah berdoa dan lihat apa yg akn terjadi selepas ini.
adakah engkau akn berpuas hati?
adakah engkau akn mendapat balasan yg setimpal daripada ALLAH swt?
adakah apa yg dapatkan akn kekal?
atau
ADAKAH MEREKA AKN MENGENANG BUDI BAEK KAU BILA MEREKA BESAR NANTI SELEPAS MEREKA MENGETAHUI APA YG ENGKAU TELAH BUAT KEPADA MEREKA?
hanya masa akn menentukan semua ini. bukan kau.
sebab kau bukan TUHAN yg dapat menentukan masa depan mereka.

2009-11-06T21:59:00.001+08:00

im sorry if i've been missing all this while.
im sorry for abandoning this blog.
im sorry to my readers that i'll be gone for some time.
im just tired, busy.
i'll find some time to update for you guys.
with love, lisa!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

2009-10-31T14:26:00.003+08:00

30th OCTOBER 2009:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAFIZUWAN!
my one & only brother!
i love you for all my life & i wish you had your dreams coming true.
i wish you all the best in everything you do!
from your one&only, kak ika!

31th OCTOBER 2009:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HADIRAH!
my one&only makcik kepo, HADIRAH!
i hope you will continue to strive in your studies.
always keep trying & don't give up.
i wish you all the best in life!
i love you! mwaaaah kecik!
from your one&only, kak ika!

28th OCTOBER 2009:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YAZMIN!
my best girlfriend cousin!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU YAZ!
hope you will do well in your studies.
& i wish you all the best in life.
oh no! i miss spending time with you and the rest.
hope you are doing fine.
take care girl.
from you cousin, fik!

miss me?

2009-10-31T14:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY HALOWEEN PEOPLE!
awww... im not following my family to the haloween party at escape theme park :(
BOOOOOOOOOO.................!

simply because i have to work*
simply because we planned something later at night...
nk tau, tak boleh... jeng! jeng! jeng!

sorry for not updating for a while due to.... just because im not at home that much!
i'll be at cck for the rest of the year.
what i mean is i'll be lepak-ing at cck.
i'll meet taz at cck.
after work also i'll be coming down to cck just because, I LOVE CCK SOOO MUCH!
& im missing every part of my life here...
so, i'll be here to put all the shattered pieces back together.
come on tough girl, i know you can do it ! (:
wait i need is patience. thats all.
&
the BIG NEWS !
for the first time ever in our relationship which is 3 years & plus plus mths....
TAZ AJAK G LIBRARY, LPAK KAT LIB ! OMG!
believe it or not?
tak pernah2 die masok lib tibe2 ajak. tekejot jgk seyh! haha!
sorry taz.
BUT I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT !!!!!!!!!
its a good thing, bace buku together2 eh taz.

okay can i say this out????
I CAN'T WAIT FOR PAY DAY WHICH IS LIKE IN A FEW DAYS TIME!
sudah la... its too tight.
my salary analysis shows that my money $$$$$ will soon be gone after i use it to pay all my debts and my stuffs. haha! kecik2 da ade hutang. hehe. tak la. nk beli tu nie sume... nanti cpat abes seyh. hmm... how ehs? takpe. oh ya, i wonder how much will my pay be this month.
$400? $500? $600?
i know taz tak sabar2 nk beli MINI MADNESS die!
he'll go crazy if he gets one. trust me. haha! XD
it cost ard $300. so expensive tapi COOL! i like!
haha!
okay la. til here folks! see you soon!

2009-10-27T22:30:00.003+08:00

today morning i went to work with a super bad mood.
i threw my temper at my customers by not greeting them! haha! padan muke korang!
then, i had a lot of VOIDS & REFUNDS ! & i got the sway counter 1 !
sape yg dpt counter tuu mmg sway!
last week ade customer apek ni mengamok kat aunty kat counter tuu, naseb tadi takde.
kalau ade, abes ahh.. meletop gunung berapi aku ! haha! XD
i wonder how stupid this customers are.
IF THERE ISN'T ANY SIGN INDICATING THAT IM CLOSING COUNTER, THAT MEANS MY COUNTER IS OPEN FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
lagi bleh tanye, "is your counter open?" WTFish?!
&&&
STOP BEING KIASU ! thnks! sucks big time!
after work, taz picked me up from work.
then we gooo mkn & lepak!
taz disturbed me again & AGAIN !
im happy ! VERY VERY HAPPY TODAY !
its fun to be with your loved ones as long as you treat them right !
what i mean is, honestly,
i love to be the way we are now.
its like we are super close bestfriends, but actually we are soulmates.
we joke around like we are friends tapi padahal mataer.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !
i love that part !
even my mum asked, "are we mataer or wat?"
teehee :D
u, i loooove you la TAZ !
thnks for having your time spent on me.
xoxo, lisa!

2009-10-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

this guy up here make my day for today!

we went to survey for my new phone & also a landrover.
actually pon kite tak tau nk beli kereta control yg mane.
kalau dapat tuu..... shoik! SHOIK! SHOIK!
then we walked form BUGIS to KALLANG !
like OMG! how far????? very far. but we talk & talk sampai la ke kallang.
gerek. taz always disturb me! jage u ! i gigit u baru u tau ! :D
actually im happy because taz got me an ipod shuffle ! awwww, how s
people, i've been stalked!

2009-10-25T20:55:00.001+08:00

sweetest couple on earth!
should watch them on AMERICAN'S GOT TALENT show last week!
looooooooooooove it !

2009-10-25T20:19:00.003+08:00

gosh, let me complaint about yesterday.
in the morning, i reached work tooooooooooo early! haha! kiasu!
no lar actually the plan was to meet taz first before work skali, he changed plan. org pemalas nk bngn pagi! haha! JKJK. then i punched in & somehow, everone in that morning was so happy.
slaluye kalau masok pagi muke satu2 mintak kene smack. haha XD serious.
mcm org kene paksa keje. well lisa, jgn nk ckp org. ko tu pon kdg2 same jgak. XD
tak tau la kenape tapi mcm one kind nye feeling mls nk keje. well people kalau korang da keje korang akn tau ae rase nye.. hehehehehe.
pagi2 pukol 10am queue da panjang ! arrrrrrrrgh!
pls la people! jgn kiasu sgt. takot pe barang2 tu abes? tak akn la. haiyoooooo
luckily, i got counter kat atas. woooohoooo! gerek! tak penat sgt. hehe. nk keje sng jek. :P
i tell you what, BNYK CUSTOMER MEREPEK !
-ade mintak ltak barang2 dorang dlm bag dorang tapi mcm bag dorang tk cukop. abeh bile kite kasi bag bnyk sgt, drg meleteh.
-ade yg bwk bag 2, 3 abeh expect kite sumbat brg2 dorng yg bnyk kat dlm bag dorg. OMG!
-ade yg kalau kite letak brg kat dlm plastic bag nanti dorg kluarkan balik nk atur sendiri. puas hati drg pack brg2 dorg sendiri seyh!
- ade bnyk yg kene maki BODOH ! haha! i looove it.
-okay this story seriously show kebodohan org-org nie. the counter beside me ade glass jatuh abeh pecah. then gor this cleaner yg dtg nk bersihkan tmpt tu. org tu ade la mop pnat2. dtg customer-customer yg takde otak nie sume maen jalan jek kat tmpt yg org tu baru mop. i turn and glare at the customer abeh drg maen jalan jek buat muke sardine. then i lost my temper. i turn n shout "BODOH PE? KAN OR TENGA MOP. LAGI BASAH ABEH NK JLN. MCM TAKDE TMPT LAEN NK JALAN" well, this people really pisses me off seyh.
* IF I WERE TO QUIT OR GET FIRED, I'LL MAKE SURE ON THAT DAY I'LL RELEASE MY ANGER TO ALL THE CUSTOMER WHOM I SERVE, im so freaking serious bout it*
after work, i went to lpak with taz at cck.
talk, talk, talk, talk
smpai pkol 10 lebih. then bile da kat mrt track baru teringat yg hp taz ade kat dlm bag.
alamak! da kene tron balek! LOL !
reached home ard 11 plus almost midnight.
naseb hari ni tak keje. kat ruma 1 hari lpak jek sey. mkn tido, mkn tido, mkn tido!
well people, till here!
im so gonna get a landrover! shoik!
xoxo, lisa!

2009-10-23T09:56:00.003+08:00

lets talk about something which can make me feel better.
Firstly i'll tell you what i want in life.

-i want to start school to fill my time up so that no one can accuse me of being 'menyebok' (:
-i want to get a new FLIP PHONE ! omg ! i've been wanting it since i was in sec school man! kalau beli phone pon slalu yg slim nye... only when i bought the GEMOK CHINA PHONE (: then its not slim. haha !
-i wanna rombak balek my wardrobe. im surely gonna donate those clothes that im not wearing to the salvation army. i have even got clothes that i bought but i've never wear it. the reason is im kind of tk suit dgn baju-baju tu sume. haha! tangan gatal ! even my mum is so fed up with me. beli-beli baju tapi ta pki. =X
-i want an admin job plsssssssssssssssssssssssssss!
-i want to stay in choa chu kang. oh god, pls make my wish come true :(
-i want my mum to be happy always.
-i want my family to be safe 24 hours (:
-i want to spend more time with my loved ones.
-i want to spend more time with him, but i wonder if i still can.
-i want to say sorry for those whom i've maybe hurt in the past.
-i want to say sorry to those who i've played pranks on! like, "niti,niti,niti,bai.....zura !"
-i want to join radio academy, if only i can pay the fees :(
-i want to join a dance group,modern dance. actually i've been longing wanting to join it but too bad. no opportunity. & plus, im too malu la nk joget dpn org! haha! only my family knows how good i can joget dangdut ! XD
-i want to have my licence soon !
-i want a KR bike! so i can vroooom..........vrooom far far away !
-i want to have a abang ! how i wish i have one !

& lastly,
i want a perfect family like others ):

2009-10-22T16:21:00.002+08:00

im back from work. i brought lappy along to work.
i don't know what's going on between us but what i know is that he's hiding something fom me. well, what i can only do now is wait n see & bnyk2 besabar.

to YOU :
i tau i nie mcm mane. suke marah2 u. suke membebel bnyk. tapi i takde niat pon kalau marah u. kalau marah pon stakat mcm mara gitu2 jek. tapi i tak tau pon yg u smpai hati uat i mcm nie. im sorry if i ever hurt u. i know i did. but i tau kalau i ckp sorry pon u tak akn maafkan i.
i know. im not a good gf. i admit it.
buti don't deserve to be treated this way.
aku hanyalah wanita yg tak bisa lari daripada kesilapan.
im sorry.................

2009-10-21T21:53:00.003+08:00

im back !
sooooooooooo sorry da lame tak update ! gosh !
sorry la peminat-peminat kus semue ! haha ! step mane nye ade peminat jek :p
BOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
currently busy with work + work + work !!!!!!
& a part time teacher teaching my adek for her exams! busy sungguh!
work nth special laaa. its just that my boss wanted me to be his FULL-TIME CASHIER!
ooooh, tidak !!!!!!
penat sungguh nanti ! pls ehs...! my boss skrg kan kalau die free jek ade jek die kacau org. serious. tapi tk flirt laaa. tapi my boss cute tau ! mcm panda! HAHAHA! :DDDD
well, i used to disturb him with "someone"..
used to...
now? hmm... it's complicated.
i guess its hard to talk to him about things nowadays.
i don't know why. maybe it's him or maybe it's me.
i don't wanna talk about it anymore.
IT'S COMPLICATED!
sumpah complicated abes!
it makes me sad.
tapi kalau terpikir balek like i dunno what he actually wants.
whatever i do, semue tak kene.
what's wrong?
i so hate relationships now
well, there's ups & downs.
MY LIFE: FOREVER DOWN
how i wonder when is my happiness gonna come back.
stay tune for more!
actually,i wanna update like everything. tapi pnat!
sorry guys !
next time perhaps!
xoxo, lisa !

2009-10-18T14:56:00.001+08:00

i'll be back soon (:

2009-10-16T01:25:00.000+08:00

i know im not a good gf.
i know im not the best you ever had.
i know there are girls way better than me.
well, if its the last time you gonna see me,
i will have to say, it will be the last time im updating this.

2009-10-15T22:37:00.003+08:00

do i deserve all this shit?
why should i cry for you?
do i deserve all this? do you even care about wat i feel?
huh? i just don't know the person who you are now.
u're just a great pretender.
i cried for you, yess.
i sulk alone, yess.
do you even care where i was all this time?
even if im hurt, do you care?
even if im sad, do you care?
wat did you do?
you simply just leave me alone. just like that.
& its all because of her.
jealousy? yess.

well, this is for you, ______*
im saying this from my heart.
im not trusting you like i did before.
after what you did, it really hurt me a lot.
i need time to calm myself down.
i need time to regain myself.
i need time for me to trust you back.
its not easy, yess its not.
& if you care about me & want me like before,
prove to me that i can still trust you.
thank you.

2009-10-09T19:48:00.006+08:00

08.10.2009, THURSDAY

aaaaaaaw! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! XD
im one year older ! watta ?! YEAY-ness!
thnks to al all the precious people who wishes me all the best! thnks guys!
i love you guys! a big thnks to my precious family & awesome friends !
my wish, is the wish that i have always been wanting & i hope one day it will happen,
its the happiest thing that can possibly happen to me!
oh boy, how i wish it will happen soon.
anyways, im happy enough for no because i still have the people who still remember my birthday. well, let me share with you guys how i celebrated my birthday.
preetty awesome! (smile big big*)

let's start! here we go!
firstly, morning, i had to work! oh gosh! but i can say that i love working weekdays!
nyaha! customer pon tak ramai, so tak busy sgt... so when i was at my place, one of the TL called me and asked me to do some paperwork! awesome! its the best! haha XD jadi clerk kat dlm office! sape tak suke, kan? kan? kan?
so i spent the whole of my working time in the office. so when i closed my register, sales tak bnyk! awwww! how sad D: hehe JKJK.
& at work people were also wishing me happy birtday! sungguh kecoh! haha!

after work, there was this guy waiting for me outside my workplace, awwww!
its my best boyfriend ever! yg heran nyeeeee, kite leh pki hitam together2! :p
mcm jodoh gituuuu kan??? haha! i looooove it!
to taz: ala u.... u ckp je lebih nk ade cake la sume, tapi at last tak kene sabo jek? haha! selalunye u jek yg kene sabo dgn i ! hehehehehe! gaga! padan kume u! so, next year standby ehs u! :p
then after that, we head to bugis to jln2! & we almost had a fight with an aunty there psl nk masok toilet pon kene byr $0.20 per person? watta?????
abeh kalau org cine masok die tak mintak bayaran pon! racist aunty!
then we actually ingatkan nk g penin, tapi tak jadi. its all because everything we needed is at bugis! haha! gatal kan????

we had our break at you know where :)

first up, this is from taz!
aaaaaaaaaaawwwww! for me, this is too much seyh.
its like its so costly! but thnks taz!
i love you sooo much! i nk ckp yg kdg2 i mara2 u sume tu psl i kesah dgn u..
bkn nye i mara sbb i tak suke u... i just don't want you to get into any trouble.
& i nk ucapkan terima kasih for everything that you have ever done for me.
this is the best birthday gift i've ever had! thnks taz! i love you!!!! mwaaaaah!
& once again thnks for being there when i ever needed you.
thnks for making my day.
thnks for being my bestfriend, my brother & my boyfriend.
xoxo, fik aka GEMOK!

this is from _____ & ______ !
for me to know for you to find out ! haha!
thnks for remembering my birthday!
i soooooo love the candle! bau die pon mcm choco!
:) :) :) :) :) :)

this is from mummy!
-victoria secret body spray
- a bag! XD
thnks mama! i love you sooooo much!

not forgetting both my sis, FILA & HADIRAH! semangat btol! drg laaa yg first nyanyi kan lagu bithrday!! awwww! so sweet!
& HAFIZ! thnks bro for the wish!
& to my NENEK, thnks for the $$$ she said i can buy whatever i want! haha!
i love you guys!!!!!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

sorry for not updating it on the day itself.
because i came back at almost midnight!
my day la katekan...
lastly, thnk you! love you guys!
stay tune for more updates!
xoxo, lisa hyesaidora!

2009-10-06T19:29:00.004+08:00

its like in just 2 more days im officially 17 ! OMFG! im sure growing soooo fast! i've not been blogging for like only a few days. reasons- LAZY + BUSY -_-
someone slap me n say stop being a pemalas can ? can? can? firstly, i found out that my working experience is really an eye opener. its like you can see how the people out there are like. some are nasty. pretty nasty i can say. that "some" people i can't mention here,
if not, i'll be label as RACIST!
oh gosh, in the morning i took 67 to work. its was so freaking squeezy in the bus & the bus driver keep pesting us to move in. wat the hell! can't he see that there is no more space for us?! what can i say, a foreigner being the driver! haiz. & he ven speaks in mandarin.
oh come on! this is singapore!
you must at least know a little english here alright!
at work, reached ard 8.30 am.
faces of the people - MCM ORG NGANTOK!
well, they had stock check yesterday night. so they had to stay up the whole night. so was taz. kesian mataer aku kene seksa! hahahahahaha! padan muke sape suroh keje mlm????! kan? kan?

now i know how people are being kiasu.
FIRSTLY, they will buy stuffs that are on discount ONLY!
SECONDLY, they will keep asking items that we are scanning whether its on discounted price & i swear that is so irritating!
THIRDLY, when they got their on bags, they will surely ask us whether we gave them the $0.10 discount! oh come on! it doesn't make any difference!
FOURTHLY, they will keep asking whether their pourchase is $50.00 or not. becuase they want to redeem the carpark receipt which gave them a $1.00 discount. -_- LMAO!
FIFTHLY, they will sure put the things that they decided not to buy at our counter which made everything looks like a mess! seriously! i hate it!
-so if you fall into one of the reasons, pls don't come to my counter to pay!
haha! if not, i'll bite you! :DDDDDDD

i had a fun weekend with my family! we went swimming. but we just swam at the baby pool cause we had to teman our adk sedare yg cute tuu! haha!
then we conqured the whole baby pool n play catch! haha! the people are like watching us passing this water ball yg sakit kalau kene badan! serious! then the ira n hafiz played wrestling in the water & my pakcik became the referee! gagaga! they surely miss each other a lot!

oh yaaa! the saturday! i came back form work, ira & hafiz kept calling tanye da kat mane sume. i knew something waas going on! then mama at home panggil suroh masok bilek!
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there was ira in there! muke mcm toyol! dgn gigi taring die!
gagagagaga!
HAPPY HALOOWEEEEN PEOPLE!
yessa! mama planning to go on the creepy halooween celebration at downtown east!
its a BLAST! yeay-ness :DDDDD

2009-10-02T22:10:00.009+08:00

i just can't find the perfect song for my blog. OMFG! its so hard to get a "sedap song" HAHA! ehs y'all ehs, time org keje bnyk pulak yg buat open house! how i wish i can do! haiyooo. wat to do..???? currently im having migrane! OMG! mcm mane nie???? bsok da nk keje. oh come on! belom keje da stress balek? haiya! mcm mane tk stress, da lame seyh tak pegi keje. its like 3 weeks i've not been attending work. i asked for off days! gaga! just to hilangkan penat & get on the mood of raya. but eventually, nothing happens. haha! BORING! geduuussssh! im sooooooooooooooooooooo EXCITED for my birthday! haha! its like the event for the year. haha. JKJK. padahal nanti boring rabak. so, im hoping there's a miracle! yeay! tomorrow im working! haizzzzzzzzz. i hope its gonna turn out good. i've had my left eye twitching all the way. wat sign could it be? wei! im pretty superstitious okay! trust me, i believe my eyes!

random: some people are starting to forget abt me & my presence in their life! its sad y'know.

& to my adk sedare, intan nurazlin.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

2009-10-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

to my best mum on earth, ROCK ON!
love you!
^^V

2009-09-30T13:21:00.006+08:00

HELLO! HELLO! HELLO! KOPI KE MILO! -_-
yesterday i had super fun time with my colleagues! we had a dinner treat at SAKURA! gerek pe tuu?! best....! tapi too bad, nat takde. TO NAT: sume org carik kao tau ! humph!
before kite g sane, i went to workplace & then taz ajak alek uma die tukar baju jap. so i waited for him. then we quickly flag a cab and then VROOOOOM! bile da smpai kite saje2 jek masok.
haha. mcm saje2 jek jln masok. bile da smpai, ronald gave us a couple table! mcm ade candle light dinner la kononnye! kekekekekeke ! :D
bile da lpas mkn, time check: 9.00 pm! semue org nk alek. then they say, " if you want to stay, you can stay untill the restaurant close also can!" gagagagagga! :D
so, they made a move first, so tinggal la kite berdue.. kite naek tron, naek tron mkn jek! haha!
non-stop. untill we had our last salmon! then kite nk jln g bustop laen crite. nk kene walk through this park. da la gelap. sunyi. plus! tenga redlight! ape tak seram nye... so kite jalan la laju2. skali pusing! ade org dudok kt tmpt gelap2 tu. brani naa seyh. then tunggu bus pon like ard 15 mins aru bus ade. so we headed home after that!

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AFTER!

so guys, my new long hair! gaga! :D

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BEFORE!

okay im bored! this weekend da start keje! OMFG! so not in the mood. lagi drg tukar machine, so how its gonna be with my first day of new machine? confirm gabra gile punye! sheeeeesh! taz have been working real hard! nk tau asl? carik duet to buy my birthday present ehs???? hahahahahhahahah! tak tau malu btol la fik nie! :p
JKJK. ohs ya, like in afew days time, im gonnna be officially 17! next year 18! yeay! im so gonna grab my bike license asap! yeay! :D

org ckp, kalau tukar2 blogskin kt blog selalu takpe,
jgn suke tukar2 mataer selalu mcm tukar2 blogskin suda!
get it?
okay, CRAP!
BYE.

2009-09-28T21:35:00.001+08:00

taz was so sweet today! i like!
love you, fik!

2009-09-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

all i wanna say is thank you & i love you !

2009-09-24T23:18:00.003+08:00

FIRST & UPMOST, sorry for not updating for soooooooo long!
just not in e mood + busy lately ! D:
but.... sebelom tu....

fika disini ingin meminta maaf kepada semua pembace blog fik. sekirenye kalau fik terkasar bahasa atau ade buat salah silap, atau ade cakapan fik yg buta korang semua sakit hati, fik harap y'all dapat maafkan. okay! di bulan yg mulia nie,
marilah kite bergembira sesama manusia!
happy2 selalu okay!

taz have been bugging me to update. so nah! ambek nie ! nyaha ! :D
but before that,
-DO YOU KNOW THAT I HAVE 'LONGER HAIR ' NOW? YAAA! I REDO MY HAIR EXTENSIONS! CRAZY! I KNOW! SO I DON'T NEED TO BE JEALOUS OF Y'ALL WITH LONG HAIR AYE!
SO MIRA, AKU DA LEH SWING RAMBOT KU ALEK TAU :P
so here is some of my raya pics. can't upload the whole bunch! mls :p
kecohness'

saiful cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute !

sorry guys, candid!

so here i am! i swear my first day baju is like baju pengantin! it cost a lot of $$$$$$
i hope you guys enjoyed my most MLS update ever!
mcm boring gitu kan... so im gonna tag everyone NOW!
hahahahahahhahahahahahahah!

xoxo,fik!

2009-09-18T05:10:00.002+08:00

its true what mira said.
tak baek mara2, da nk raye pon.
argggggggh! i can't sleep the whole night!
SHOOOOT !
sleeping disorder.
bye ^^V

2009-09-15T11:09:00.005+08:00

BUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ AROUND !
hey y'all ! i've been buzzing ard lately. not staying at home. returning home late is my thing.
nyaha. bad girl? nope. its just the boredome at home made me did all that.
y'know it sucks to be stuck at home doing nothing. especially having grandparents who is 24/7 kecoh about our whereabout. haha. funny though. lagi pon kat uma nie ade 2 bdk kecoh.
MR KEPO & MAKCIK KEPO ! nyaha!

he loves it when people swing him ard :D
cute kan die? i call him my TEDDY BEAR !

this girl just love the webcam TOO MUCH, i swear.

okay, lets check my HARI RAYA PREPARATION LIST:

BAJU: done! i swear the baju looks like baju org nk kawin! sungguih bergaya! :p
HAIR: DONE! omfg! i stayed at e saloon till 11 plus. believe it or not? but the turn out, superb!
ROOM: done! i love the butterflies at my windows!
HOUSE: for kitchen, yes. but for hall, no. i've not yet clean it up.
HEELS: done! i don't even need to think of wat to wear, nyaha! all because im gonna recycle my prom shoe! (;

for a second thought, its good to be out there knoing different type of people.
recently i had a friend who shared with me her life story.
its sad y'know.
mcm bile kite terfikir yg hidop kite susah, there is always someone out ther eyg lagi susah. so stop whining about this & that. be grateful.
bersyukur hidop aku mcm nie. at least not that bad. haiz.....
sometime ties made aren't going that well. he always cant find time for me that much.
tu yg buat kite paliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing sedih tau ! :(

& NAT, u made a good point. people are viewing my blog but not leaving a tag.
if can do so aye! :D
k lar, i've nth else to say. goodbye readers.

2009-09-12T21:06:00.002+08:00

I LOVE RED !

2009-09-11T18:07:00.002+08:00

FACTS ON: Couples fight most frequently about not spending enough time with each other

Couples fight most frequently about not spending enough time with each other.
Many find that they bring stress home. Others are caught in a vicious circle: To maintain a certain standard of living they have to work/school long hours, thus having less time at home.
People would rather stay at work - where they are respected and recognised - than go home to a spouse who nags for not spending time at home.

Tips to resolve the issues:

Set a time to talk about what's working in your relationship and what's not.
This creates a safer space in which both parties can feel respected and listened to. Don't complain about what your spouse is doing wrong.
That often leaves them-feeling attacked, and solves nothing.
Identify what you need from your spouse. Some people may need physical touch or gifts to feel connected; others may want more time together.
Alternatively, set up time during the work/school day to call each other. Whatever makes you tick, tell your spouse.
Sometimes that can take trIal and error, so be patient.
Relaxing and restoring yourself will have you actually conversing with your spouse, instead of dumping your complaints about your day on him or her.

sorry to say.

2009-09-11T17:40:00.003+08:00

things is not going well for me. i hate to say this.
but, i just can't held back my feelings, my tears & my words.
its okay if you doesn't want to be the one accompanying me to a place.
its okay if you refuse to meet me up.
but just don't leave our story ending just like that.
i just don't understand why are you drifting away from me?
what have i done wrong?
sape yg mulekan semue nie?
is it fair for me?
i just hope you are reading this.
because there is no other way that i can talk to you.
im stuck with nothing.
no clues.
no marks.
no path.
where can i get the answers?
its all up to you.
i just don't want history to repeat itself.
i know its me who started the shit last time, but i hope you are not taking revenge on me.

escape to lala land!

2009-09-10T17:33:00.004+08:00

girls, pls provide me with an answer.
how will you feel when found out that your boyfriend was eyeing on girls when you are not with him? do you feel like you've been betrayed? do you feel like you've been cheated?
its like you gave them freedom that they wanted but they took advantage of it.
i've been keeping quite whenever you wanted to go anywhere you want.
it doesn't mean that i don't care. its just that I CAN'T BE BOTHERED ANYMORE.
if i said no, you will say that im being a control queen.
if i said yes, do you see the result now?
is it fair to me? is it fair for me to accept the fact that ONLY you have the rights to meet up with your clans but not me. ONLY you can meet up with your friends & stay up late with them but not me. is it fair ? it isn't for me.
how can i ever make you understand? its not the first time im talking about this.
nevertheless, you still betrayed my trust towards you.
thnks for hurting me again.
i just don't know whether i should still trust you.
or should i not? im confused.
sucha a heartless scrubs. too much lies.
the fact:
GUYS WILL NEVER TELL THE TRUTH.
honestly, that is what i learnt today.
in this world, its difficult to find honest guys.
guys only know how to cheat on girls & spend their time happily without caring whether their GFs likes it or not. its up to you ro believe it or not.
for me, its a waste of time talking to him about it.
he will just say SORRY & do it again & say SORRY AGAIN.
easy for them.
guys are just full of lies.

2009-09-10T00:19:00.003+08:00

IM IN LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE !
but shh, nobody knows bout it.

FIRSTLY, im done buat-ing my chocolate cornflakes! OMFG! ITS SO FREAKING LOTS!
i made it myself! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
IM DONE WIPING THE WHOLE DAPOR! OMFG! SO PENAT LA SEYH!
my grandma renovated the floor in both toilets. so the nice! HAHA!
nk tengok, come here la to my house then you can see. XD
basically sume wiping da uat. im all left with pasang langsir & salin bantal punye sarong.
okay, my theme for this year is black & white. CLASSIC Y'KNOW!
its all modern taste baby! :) tengok la sape yg choose colour. NOT ME!
haha. my mum laaaa. my grandma also agreed. so, wella!
here are my list of things to do for next week.

MONDAY: saloon time bebeh! :DDDDD
TUESDAY: i need to find my LIMEGREEN baju raya! ni sume last min plan! HUH! sume pki green bkn tau nk blg siang2. benci la!
WEDNESDAY: im booked for my tuition class!
THURSDAY: im booked for my tuition class!
FRIDAY: meet up with my new lover*

lately, i can'r sleep that well. like kol 2 pagi maseh tersada2.
mcm tido tapi tak tido. haiyoooo.... its creepy la...
i read a magazine nie, sume cite psl DOOMSDAY 2012.
takde org tau hari kiamat tu bile. so pls seyh.
tadi meet up with love. haha. mcm da lame tak jumpe. pls seyh./
padahal baru 2 hari. EHS! JGN LUPE TAU NEXT MONTH!
hahahahahaha. tak tau malu btol ! XP
& recently, i heard news about my bestfriend. so sad laa.
i hope you're strong aye. i'll always be there for you. cheer up okay.
k lar. NothingMoreToBlog!

xoxo,lisawalker!

im sorry dear.

2009-09-07T23:14:00.003+08:00

im sorry if im not the bset you ever had.
honestly, im not perfect.
maybe you felt like im not the one for you.
if you feel so, just tell me.
i have no right to control you.
i feel like im nobody to you.
i feel like im lonely.
i just need someone to talk to me.
but i guess, its not you.
you don't even have the time.
so sorry, im just hurt.
thats all.

miss !

2009-09-07T11:37:00.003+08:00

alalalalala, kesian nye blog aku nie.. sooooooo sad. sorry baby for abandoning you. tsk, tsk.
haha. &&& im sure "someone" is excited to read my blog, its OFF COURSE TAZ!
BUT! there is still "someone" yg menyebok here. nyaha! look! look! look!
for me to know for you to find out ! HAH !
this few days, i've been busy meeting taz, my one & only man!
on FRIDAY, we went to buka luar with taz's clan! okay i made new friend! HAHA!
taz i tau u sebok nk tau ape i bobal ngn die kan.... NO! NO! tak leh! bluek ! :p
kepo la u nie. hehe! jadi lelaki tak leh kepo hor!
then we went for sisha! HAH! then we lepak there till like almost midnight!
giler kappe? bsok aku keje DOK!
haha. we played cards la. muderer laa. magic laaa.
mcm2. that night. it was taz's treat :DDD YEAY EVERYBODY!
he blanja me like almost everything! so good la taz! ILY! :DDDDDD
then SATURDAY, lagi satu hal! bngn pagi lmbt abeh lmbt g keje!
naseb ade nat. YEAY! im saved !
SUNDAY, the COLD DAY EVER! serious! naek bus sejok! smpi kt tmpt keje sejok!
haiyaaa! balek keje pon same. naek bus sejok! alamaaak!
taz, bile lagi leh jumpe nie??? lamenyeeee nk jumpe!
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. when can we go pancing?????? nk ikot !
okay la im gg to siap to geylang.
SEMANGAT PE G GEYLANG SIANG2 BUTE! :DDDDDD
nk carik baju adk2 kus yg tercintas! k bye!

xoxo, fik!

2009-09-04T00:34:00.002+08:00

why don't you realise it ?
why can't you just stop doing what i hate?
why must you always repeat it over & over again?
why must you always bring up the past?
why must you keep repeating that i busted you last time?
why must you keep saying that im staying far away from you?
why is there a boundary between me n my friends?
why must i tell you everything as if you care?
why must i keep reporting to you whatever im doing?
why must i always be hurt by your words?
why must i not hurt you?
why is it that you can meet your pals easily & not me?
why is it so unfair to me?

why is life hard for me?
do you care if im hurt?
do you even know that im hurt by your words?
do you even look back at me when you leave me?
do you even feel sorry for me?
do you even love me?
do you even care for my feelings?
is this the way you treat people who have been helping you?
are you even sincere with me?
if yes, why would you talk about the past?
do you even have all the answers to this questions?

2009-09-03T21:56:00.003+08:00

okay enough is enough.
this is so full of shit.
its easy for you to say, but it aint easy to heal okay.
WEML ! IDC !
just now i went to meet taz. nyaha! he bullied me A LOT !
aiyaaaaaa! tomorrow got course so i need to go! D: BUT,
at least lpas tu g buke luar ngn tazzy. YEAY ME ! :DDDD
like finally, i know how to do my background. wohooooo!
actually my uncle plan nk g geylang. haiyo! geylang? mesti ramai org punye.
the stupid question is " bile ehs geylang tak ramai org ?"
hahahahahahahahahahaha. CRAP.
nk dendeng can? can? can?
never mind, tomorrow leh dapat ! yeay me!
k la. no mood to blog.
xoxo, fik!

2009-09-03T14:13:00.002+08:00

don't push yourself off the limit.
if you're pissed with someone else, don't venge your anger on me.
im also someone with feelings.
& if you lose respect for others, people will not respect you too.
its all up to you. im done with my speech.
im done with my say.
& im sad to say, you are just someone whom you are not.
bile kat blog kao bobal waaa... mcm kao la wanita yg terbaek nie sume.
but then bile kao bobal live ngn aku, you are just the opposite person.
maybe kalao org support kao, you don't have to feel proud la girl,
its because they don't know who you are .
kalao kao nk ckp aku tak knal kao, da brape lame aku idop ngn kao?
sape yg lagi knal prangai kao?
whatever it is, pls respect my mum.
kalau kao mara aku, JGN TINGGI KAN SUARE KT MAMA AKU.
pls respect her.
she also sometimes mengadu kat aku psl kao.
ni aku blg kao skrg.
kadang2 kao msg die nie tu sume ko ade pikir ape mama rase?
pls la. grow up. kao jgn push mama to the limit ah.
& pasal aku ckp kao grow up nk tau asl?
aku pki vote2 nie sume sbb aku copy kao uhs ehs?
sbb tu kao tak suke? okay fine. i'll take it off my blog since kao tak suke.
since you wanna act childish, i'll treat you like a small kid.
& i don't want to embarass you on what you said to me.
you wished you would have a video camera?
the person that people will laugh at is you.
dgn kate2 kesat kao, kao rase org akn nilai kao seperti pompan yg baek mcm skrg?
ckp awak kite, saya awak?
huhs? im sorry/ rasenye mcm awak nie bkn org nye.
the one who felt the heat is me. because of your harsh words.
this is not the first time. or the second time.
i've tolerated this for so long. too long actually.
this is the only way i can talk to you.
tepulang pade kao nk denga ke tak.
she have given up on you. me too. who else will?
don't let "him" give up on you too.

OMFG! pls la.

2009-09-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

let me tell you, maybe i just gonna tell this straight to your "BEAUTIFUL FACE"
jgn muke lawa jek, tapi prangai burok.ye la org kat luar mmg nmpk kao lawa, cantik tapi padahal, padahal. muke cantik prangai burok buat ape la kan? sape la kan akn jadi laki kao. i hope he REALLY KNOW WHAT TYPE OF PERSON YOU ARE. atau kau kat luar jek pretend utk jadi perempuan yg baek. padahl. padahal. ehs, brape bnyk PADAHAL laaa.
so, sape mkn chili, die yg terase pedas nye la kan. aku cume leh harap kao berubah.
berubah la. jadi org yg berguna siket. tolong2 la siket. FED UP AH AKU.
actually ramai org tak suke dgn sikap ******* kau. tapi takde org brani ckp kat kao. sbb sume org tau nk jage ati kau. tapi kao takde nk jage perasaan. pls la. skrg aku da nk ckp straight kat kao, BERUBAH. stop pretending la. thnks. so people, jgn muke lawa, tapi prangai
mcm pompan pemalas.

sorry, bace my blog jek da marah2.
i just can't stand it la.
da la! benci la! bye la!

code for the day; SUPERB.

2009-08-31T23:53:00.000+08:00

okay! okay! okay! GOOOOOOOOO!
i went back to my sec school!
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im sooooooooooooooooooooooo happy to meet my babes back!
HAPPY! ECSTATIC! GLAD! GLEE! CRAZY! AWESOME! BEST!
NK LAGIIIIIIIIIIII CAN? CAN? CAN? CAN?
sheek, azah & su : present sume da kasi ehs! haha! love u lar babe!
& mira!!!! happy dpt jumpe kao!!! org first aku pelok tadi :DDDDDDDDD
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
nunu was there toooo!!! HUGS & HUGS!! XOXO! :D
lynnnn !!!! HUGS! HUGS!
shaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! ceret beret kappe? haha! HUGS & MORE HUGS!
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qilaaaa! jumpe kat library! HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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i want moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooore!
nk jumpe lagi !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can? can? can?
im just to happy la seyh! tak leh blog lagi !!!!!
nyahaaa!
madness: is me.

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there's this guy who even make my day!
i wento buka luar with him, as promised. sorry girls!
awweeeeeeeeeeeeeeesome day baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want more! more! more! more! more!
& i want my hugs & kisses too ! D:

girls, dont go crazy.
i shake hand with "someone popular" tau (wink*wink*)

will it come to an end?

2009-08-28T13:22:00.000+08:00

spending my life with you is not a mistake for me.
its the best thing which had ever happen to me.
even when im done, i will try to be strong
because i know you will be there, for me.
when we fight, don't ever say that you will regret being with me.
i hope you are reading this.
even if i didn't say a word, it doesn't mean that
im neglecting you.
i just want you to realise.
i hope we can be like we used to.
i want my johny walker back.

xoxo, lisa walker!

this is why kids love webcam (:

2009-08-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

you wanna play games, we'll see

2009-08-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

i've moved ! okay people sorry for the "move" nyaahaa. mcm pinda ruma la seyh. but actually pon blom abes uat blog baru nie. lagi nk add twitter. so i can tweeet & tweeet! so people if you have twitter, follow me aye. sbb sometime, im so super lazy to update. OKAY! OKAY! today i had a bad day. straight forward ckp la ehs. don't go ard e bush. KIND OF PISSED OFF HERE! im burning here! TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT ! ;..../

my mixpod is not working & i don't know why. shoot ! babs btl ! haha. & my television at my room is not working. lagi bende ape yg nk rosak? smakin nk raye nie, maken bnyk bende rosak. geeeraaam btol ! chibey ! ohhhh ya! speaking of chibey, tadi poh lan called. haha. random seyh die call. she told me that i had to go for a course for bla bla bla bla bla...... haha. then i said OKAY! its on friday! the whole day! what the fish la seyh.

so korang add me tau ! &&&& MONDAY:TEACHERS DAY! haha. semue org mesti ckp "kao alek skola tau, jgn tak alek." nyahaaa! ohs yaa, this year ade finalist anugerah performing at my school. ohhs, sungguh best! haha. sorry im not so fanatic of them. im just supporting! :) (wink*wink*)

xoxo,lisa hyesaidora.